Beauty in the Imperfection

This week I had this amazing idea in my head to create these beautiful shiny candle holders to place for sale on my store. I was so excited, I walked into the store with this high excitement because I had this great idea and the picture in my head these candle holders were going to be AMAZING. I got home I gathered the tiny glass beads that I have been trying to figure out what to do with, I set up my workstation, and I began to create this amazing piece of beauty. I put the glue on, rolled the glass jar in the glass beads. Man, I was so excited. The light hitting exactly right and it was sparkling like I had imagined in my head. So, what did I do? I did a couple more, because this was poppin, I was in love with it and thought this would look amazing with either a pillar candle or even a flameless candle. It is going to reflect the glass mirrors and make that sparkle that I was wanting. I had to let the glue dry overnight, so I left them sit and this morning, the mess, the disappointment, the crash of my idea. Sat on my workstation staring at me with disappointment. The glue I had put on dried a white filmy coating. The picture that I had imagined in my head was not what was placed in front of me. I was disappointed to say the least. However, as my little worktable sat in front of me the sun shined through my window this morning and the whiteboard that these candle holders were sitting on did the sparkling that I had imagined in my head. Though the candle holder itself did not look like what I expected, there was still the sparkle that I wanted. This made me think about life.

How many times do we have this plan, idea, or expectation in our lives and we move forward with it with full on confidence and then it turns out to become something quite different, nothing like we planned not even close? I know I can count more of the unplanned ideas, expectations, hopes, plans etc. than I can count of the plans, ideas and expectations that did happen. Life is messy, complicated, and unpredictable, and even disappointing at times. However, in each of us there is a sparkle that shines, a beauty the pops through, and even beauty in the imperfections that we carry. It is during that time that we need to focus on beauty in the imperfections not the imperfections itself. So, I want to encourage you that what you have planned, or an idea that you had in your head, even that expectation of how something is going to go, does not go like you wanted and it leaves a while film that you did not expect remember to look at the beauty in it and find that shine.

Just over a year ago I got to a point where I could not work, like I used to. I needed to decide to pay attention to my health before it got unmanageable. I got to a point I could not stand or walk without assistance…This was not in my plans of life. I still had the mind of me being in my twenties and I could do anything. Now looking back and even today I realized that is not the case. Things did not go according to my plan, however because of the situation I was in, I was able to do other things that if I were working full time, I would not have been able to do. I was able to work on the weekends at my friend’s store and visit my dad more often. I had the freedom to help with my nephew who has profound autism (I would probably not say help but more like get into trouble by his mom that I may or may not have encouraged) MINI VAN SNOW GLOBE!!! If you are an auntie or uncle and need advice on how to annoy your siblings, reach out to me and I will tell you how to do a minivan snow globe. Sorry sidetrack, this was one of my proudest auntie moments and holds the trophy.

Any way my point to this blog is that things are not going to go how you want them and that is ok.

Just remember to find beauty in the imperfections.